Dec172009
Out of Hibernation into the Middle of Winter
Filed under books,work by Kim at 4:16 pm on Dec 17 2009
So walking the walk seems to have worked; getting back to work, getting out and seeing people, it all seems to have upped the motivation factor significantly. There’s still some lost lamb business going on in my consciousness but I don’t feel like I can blame it all on fear and depression right now.
I am not loving my job, but so be it. I’m doing stuff that’s really kind of confusing and that makes me very slow. I have pushed past it every other time I’ve felt like what I’m doing is complicated and miserable, I will get past it this time.
I’ve helped Telf move and paint, I’ve trimmed trees and hammed it up (with actual ham) and exchanged secret santa books. I’ve been trying to pull the camera out more (click through the picture of books to see all December’s labors) and my head’s been buzzing with ideas for that as well as ideas for tattoos which is something I don’t need (to spend money on) right now but I’m letting it percolate.
Last weekend we decided we’d do chores for a little while and that wound up with each of us spending 5+ hours on our respective cleaning tasks (him – bathroom, me – kitchen) getting them back to pristine condition. I think nothing helped me get out of my funk more than doing that. It seems like it ought to be sad that I consider cleaning this huge accomplishment, but it sure didn’t make me feel sad every time I’ve gone in the kitchen since Sunday. Quite the opposite, really.
I may or may not be out of internet contact next week. If I can’t post, then I’ll say Happy Holidays for now!
1 TAOon 17 Dec 2009 at 6:31 pm
Happy Holidays to you too!
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Kim Reply:
December 17th, 2009 at 11:57 pm
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2 mpomyon 17 Dec 2009 at 9:22 pm
Ah, the holidays. Always such fun. Let me see, is it the self-disdain over not wanting to see loved ones, or the guilt I feel about the remarkably inadequate presents? Oh well, that’s just some of my junk.
Anyway, your pictures are wonderful, as always. Thanks for sharing. And remember, there is nothing that we can’t do once there is a clean kitchen within which to work.
Hope you and yours have a great holiday season and new year. I’m looking forward to more great sound and vision in 2010 and hopefully I will see you at a show one of these days.
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Kim Reply:
December 17th, 2009 at 11:59 pm
Thank you so much. As we look back on 2009 I will be grateful that we met in this wondrous world of the internet, thanks for stopping by and commenting.
I know I will be on a more curtailed budget next year but I too hope to see you at a show someday. Maybe we can get something happening in Baltimore that tempts you down here!
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